adoxography

I wish I knew how other people see me.

Like does the kid that talks to me everyday on facebook actually want to be my friend… or is he just bored?
Is the guy that compliments my clothes and hair like all the time just that kind of nice guy who is awkwardly cute… or does he actually like me?
Do people I think I’m friends with actually like me… or do they talk about how annoying I am behind my back?
Does my best friend actually consider me the same rank… or am I farther down on their list?
Am I really just another “facebook friend” as she tells me even though we talk everyday… or was that just a slip?
Do people think I’m annoying… or do they actually understand my quirkiness?

I have a lot of questions like that.
Reading minds would be a handing tool.

We’ve had rehearsal all weekend, practically all day, and I don’t really want to go today.
But I have too.
At least I feel kinda cool in my all black techie clothes. I decided to wear black eyeliner today too… which I found was a pretty bad idea. Brown is better, at least for me, so I shall save the black for when I’m acting.

I’d be happy if I got a Taylor Lautner poster for Christmas. :)

10 things you want for Christmas:

1. A box set of the Harry Potter series.
2. A lap top (yeaahh right)
3. New black converse
4. Nutella :)
6. Maybe some money to get some new clothes
7. A nice camera (another ‘I wish’ item)
8. A Wii! (yet another one)
9. there’s not really anything else I want…
10. ” “

9 musicians/bands you love:
1. The Beatles
2. The Decemberists
3. Death Cab for Cutie
4. The Shins
5. Ben Folds
6. Tom Felton
7. Michael Buble
8. Regina Spektor
9. Cute is what we aim for

8 things you do everyday:
1. Text
2. Get on the computer
3. Eat
4. Watch tv
5. Shower
6. Listen to music/play music
7. Wish I could hang out with friends more
8. Procrastinate

7 things you enjoy:
1. Christmas music
2. Rain, when I’m inside.
3. Baking cookies with friends
4. Writing
5. Getting things done.
6. Band.
7. Listening to music.

6 things that will always win your heart:
1. Having the same sense of humor as me
2. Having a good smile/laugh
3. Being musical/in band.
4. Being interesting… or intriguing.
5. Having that kind of awkward, geeky charm.
6. Knows when to actually just shut up.

5 favorites:
1. movie: New Moon! haha, seriously, JK. But Taylor Lautner is pretty hot, just sayin’.
2. song: Fred Jones Part 2, Ben Folds.
3. book: Too many to choose from. Seriously.
4. food: hm, right now, a toasted bagel with cream cheese. the kind you get at Insomnia. sounds really good.
5. season: Fall

4 smells you enjoy:
1. Rain
2. Grass
3. Cinnamon
4. Pear scented stuff (because real pears don’t actually have a smell).

3 places you want to go:
1. Germany
2. Italy
3. Australia

2 favorite holidays:
1. Christmas
2. New Years

1 person you’d marry on the spot:
Jospeh Gordon Levitt

“We should steal another sign,” I said, laughing, reminiscing about last year we needed a political sign and decided to take one from the side of the road at 10 o’clock at night while I was trying to get Amanda to rush home so I could watch Survivor…

Good times.

We laughed for seriously like 5 minutes straight. And not just your everyday wimpy laugh— like full on laughing.

I hope when I’m older, I’ll still be friends with some people from high school. Or just like meet every once in a while for lunch so we can think about the old days and laugh.

That’d be nice. Just to remember and be happy.

There’s been so much talk of the future lately that I don’t even know now if I want it to come or to stay a kid longer. I’m just confused and scared, but there’s really nothing I can do except hope.

a good day.

1st period: Actually went and did German work in the German classroom and got a ton of stuff done. Like 12 assignments turned in! Plus I took two tests and got 100% on both! Cool right? And Frau Kennedy said that just the two tests raised my grade 7%. Heck yes.

3rd period: Nothing too eventful happened, but that’s okay because nothing bad happened either. Sat through notes, laughed hysterically at “racial funtions,” understood what was going on, and almost finished the assignment.

Lunch: Yummy food made by me. A good lunch for once since I actually took a little time making it. Plus me and Em traded my string cheese for her bugle chip things. Haha it sounds like classic elementary school or something… trading food and all. Anyway, we made plans for a potluck next Wednesday! And also decided that it would be for Thanksgiving. So we’re all bringing stuff and even Mr. Soon said he’d bring something. Haha awesome.

5th period: Showed my kickass element video I made, and while all the others were like totally boring and mundane, I looked around during mine and people were actually paying attention. It made me happy.

Advisory: Pretty fun. Random and funny things always happen…

7th period: All the pit kids played marching drums today. Haha I played snare and bass. It was awesome. I think I liked bass 4 the best…

Anyway… good day all in all, which is surprising because I didn’t actually get much sleep last night. Oh well, what ever the reason, I’m in a good mood. :)

It’s been like a week and there is over twenty NEW German assignments that I’m missing. Why does she think that it’s ok to give so many in like one day? I don’t understand it.

• Read book for food handler’s license.
• Ask parents to pay for test. but he won’t until I “actually need to.”
• Look up SAT times. January 23rd
• Ask parents to pay for registration.
• Finish resume.
• Apply for job (maybe)
• AP Gov assignment about three minor parties: look up info on parties. decided to put off until tomorrow.
• Massive amounts of German work. All need to be finished by tomorrow.
• SLEEP.